I started applying for jobs online the Friday after I was released. I've gotten a handful of interviews (one felt really promising and I haven't heard back from them yet). I've got Indeed pretty well trained as to what sorts of jobs I'm looking for right now. The other day, I even went by a Temp agency to see what they could do for me.
I had what I felt like was a solid lead on a $15/hr job at a storage facility. But, suddenly, I wasn't sure I ought to take a job like that. I've got so much left to do around the house and in my own storage unit. I feel in no way prepared to move at the end of next month. I mostly feel like my time would be better spend applying for better jobs and working to sort and purge all my too many belongings.
I decided that if doing so was going to be my excuse for avoiding a crappy job, then I need to start treating it like a job. So, I ordered a postal scale and a label printer. I'm going to spend some time each day posting some of my nerdy collectibles for sale on Ebay. Not only do I need to get rid of so many of those things, it should also put some money in the coffers.
I also did a small restock on ring-making supplies with the intention of easing back into it by making a few more rings as gifts or for myself before deciding whether I wanted to try doing it as a money-making venture. Right on time, a local art shop that I'd asked about carrying my rings finally answered my email and responded positively. So, that's something else to perhaps keep me occupied.
Meanwhile, I've had a couple of lousy days in terms of personal motivation. Lately, I only want to sleep and eat. I have made zero progress on finding somewhere else to live and really have no idea where to start--especially since I have no source of income right now. Perhaps when things get a little realer, I'll be less inclined to turn my nose up at not-so-great jobs.
I still haven't found a therapist. I'd been waiting until after my PO set me up with my state-mandated counselor, but that still hasn't happened. I finally remembered that I knew someone who has a local counselor practice, so I reached out to him and he gave me a lead that I forgot to pursue today.
There's so much that needs to be done and often the simple tasks seem most overwhelming. I'm very easily discouraged and distracted and that makes task completion a challenge.
